!@#$%&

Like a person drowning underwater counting the seconds til their untimely death, I LONG TO ESCAPE FROM THIS FUCKED UP SHIT!

UPDATE.

So life has been kinda cray cray. No scratch that! CRA CRA! (Mia gets it!) Idk I feel like it's not bad, but I could be doing better for my self! You know? And Like educationally I could be doing alot better also! But I feel like... I'm not sure how to say it! I feel kinda lost. But not like before lost like when you get instructions to build something but it just doesnt click! Like I get it but i can't apply it! "/ IDK. plus I HAVE BEEN CRAVING A FUCKING STOGE FOR FOREVER! I want to smoke so bad! Like no joke! But I've already gone a whole month and a half! You know. So it's kinda like I can't turn back now! But I already know that some where downe the line I will start again! But maybe right now isn't the time. Also I thought I was over you! I SWEAR IT FELT LIKE I WAS! But the more I think about it... I am over you but I think I will always care for you! you! But I can still move one! :D So that's a good thing! But all I got to do now is make sure my grades get up!!! I need to pass! Cause I need to go to SF State! And I need to go to washington! For Chamber!! HAHA<3>

Peace.

FUCK...

Me for letting you make me believe you cared about me (again).

Shit nigga.

I fuccen hate my seventh period class like no muthafuccen joke!!!! AHHH!

some nigga's just need to learn when the fucc they need to shut thaaa fawk up!!!

swear to fuccen god!!!! Some niggas ask to get jumped. FUCC! 

BLAHHHH!

BOYS SUCK TESTS SUCK

Mia says hi! :)

OH.

random moments in shane-o's office bumpin
Tribe called quest and BMB.
te quiero mi vida!

In School.

So I am currently in Shane-o's office listening to this song called "Alto's Lament"
and yeah I should be english, buhhhh FUCK THAT NICCA! hahaha. yeah i'ld rather be in here. duces. MUAHAHHAHAHA.

BMB LOVE.

Today was pretty dope. Kickin it with BMB was cool! They some chill ass folks.
Cool day! Cool day!

HEYYYY.

DOPE SHIT ;

This weekend sucked.

FRIDAY-Might be losing a friend.
SATURDAY-Lost friends trust.
SUNDAY-Got yelled at.
MONDAY-Got hurt.*

(not physically either)*

Deng.

i like this one right here ;

Good ol' Televison & Synergism!

So I've been randomly missing this show I use to really like on MTV called "Daria" and they use to play re-runs on The-N, but the stopped too! So yeah anyways, I randomly typed it in on Youtube and they have like every episode ever! HAHA. So me and my mom are having an all day "Daria" blow out! Kinda of a fun funny way to end a fun funny summer, dontcha think? ;]

Hella Lit.

Fuxk nigga I'm hella blazed.

DON'T SELL YOUR SELF TO FALL IN LOVE.
THE THINGS YOU DO.

DO THAT DO THAT DO DO THAT THAT THAT.

SHE KEEPS ON PASSIN' ME BY!

so yeah.

hum.... so yeah.
this suxks.
damn it.

WOW. HAHA!

So yeah today Kim comes homeee! YAY! I can't believe I'm going to admit this to the public, but I actually missed her! HAHA. Nahh forreal tho! I really did! And yeah, finally after the longest dry spell there is a light of hope at the end of the tunnel! I like him! He makes me giggle! HEHEHE! If I play my cards right. It might just all fall in the right places! "Sometimes something breaks apart so that something better can fall into place." He told me that. Lets hope that for my sake its true! So I did linkcrew today! And it was a really good experience! I'm glad I had the opportunity to give baxk to the freshman class! And it was a good chance for me to mend broken bridges! I think that happened today! I'm still a little bitter but I think that things are better now! So Yeah! Things are going into the "HAPPY PLACE" zone, and I wouldn't mind if they just stayed there! HAHA.

e.e !!

So I haven't written a blog in a long time! Eeeeeks. Thats not good! But yeah. Lemme catch you up I miss kim, I like Richimon, got a new phones, I hate stoges, AND TRASHCANS SUXK! yeah thats about it for now. Idk what else to write about.... hum... Be ready to hear from Sally Joe soon! kay bey! :]

Hey!

So yeah yesterday was a pretty okay day! Ashley got her license! So she drove me and Mikhael around and yada yada yada! Yeahhh! Okay that's all that I really wanted to talk about cause everything else that happened yesterday was kinda not very interesting... Oh and my drivers permit test is on monday! e.e I'm hella scared. I want to drive!!! Lets hope I pass! Yeah? Yeah! HAHAHA. and WEALTHY IS CUTE! X]

HOLY FUKCIN SHIT.

Dude. BMB Commented me on myspace! AGAIN! For like the second time!what the fukc is this! I feel so special! lol. I can die happy now! I met Passion, Reynard, The guys from BMB (And talked to them online). Yeah I'm pretty set. HAHAHA. Yeah this is a good day so far! But I'm running out of stoges! :[ And I would ask Kim but she's not here! Then I was gonna ask chase but then I remembered he's 17! Damn. Am I going to be stoge-less. HOLY FUKCING SHIT! HAHAHA. Oh well It's probably good for me anyway! Oh here's a pic of the BMB comment. ENJOY!

Je vous aime toujours!

So today was a pretty good day! I got my photo's taken and shizzz, and Met up with some friends who I haven't seen in a while. Also I got to spend time with MHM! Which is always good, cause they are my sanity. With out them I would seem so much more weird! HAHAHAHA. I got some books to read. (Props to Ashley!) I came home to my Dunny that came in the mail today! And not to mention the little surprise thinggy at the end. :] HAHAHA. So yeah, that was my day! How was yours?

WOW.

That's hella crazy! I can't believe that you did that! HAHAHA. It's such a shock to me! But I mean I'm not trying to be like, "Oh why did you do that!" and wave my finger in your face or any other cliché parental move. It's just you always seem so collected, and in a way its kind of endearing to see that you are human too. Just like the rest of us. No better, no worse. I love you. I hope you know that.

Damn...

So last night, I may have done something I probably shouldn't have done. And I'm not talking about the sneaking out part. I'm talking about the letting you use me part. The letting you make me feel like maybe I mattered. Making me feel like maybe you cared. I'm tired of always chasing after you and something there "Could Be" I think maybe its time to let you go and chase after something there really will be. Something that won't be so painful. I know love hurts. But love isn't suppose to destroy. And thats what happened. I destroyed a little part of myself for you. I destroyed my self respect. I will always love you. But, I need to. No! I moved on.

So yeah!

Yesterday was a pretty fun day if I do say so myself! PGA all day with MHM and freinds(not to mention that we were all hype). Mia took a picture with an attractive young man aswell! HAHA. Oh yeah and Kim won a ball! lol. And I took a picture with Patrick! You know? The Star! HAHAHA. Then when we we're all done at PGA Kim took us to Great Mall where I had a very interesting, and I guess you can say self esteem boosting conversation with someone that was long over due! Afterwards we all crashed at Andrew's place and chilled for a little while and you know lit up some sparklers, cause thats what cool kids do! Then Kim went and got my some blacks. Then I went home and fell asleep! lol. I guess you can say I had a great day (: Oh here are some pics in case you wanted to see!

Okay one more.

Yeah, so I'm still up on the MHM chatroom, and I'm hella excited now. I want a stoge so bad! I can already taste it! yummm. Okay so I know its a horrible addiction and blah blah blah! I'm addicted I don't say shit when you guys do all your dumb ass stuff like taking that no good jerk back! Or being that no good jerk! So yeah. HAHAHA! NM is down so I guess that this is the closest thing I have to it. "/ I still miss it terribly though! Oh well hopefully it will be up and running soon !
Okay that really is it for tonight. Byeee.

Eeeeeks.

So I hella bailed out on my chem class! HAHAHA! Oh well that class was to friggin hard to begin with! And do I look like some one who should be in COLLEGE CHEMISTRY? No, I don't. But it is what it is! Now I'm confused! About the whole pga situation! Andrew's mom is taking us? Or is it the other way around? HAHAHA! Oh well, all will be resolved tomorrow. As for now : MHM chatrooms till the wee hours of the night, and later on probably on the phone with Ashley! Hum... that's funny I remember Mia saying that one day I'll just call her "Ashley" and not think anything of it. She must be psychic. Goodnight Bloggers.

Logan Sucks.

Dude I fucking hate Logan, with a passion! motherfuckers! They messed up the schedules again! And when I went there today to ask them to put me in journalism for next year the son bitches weren't even there! AHHH! I hate this. I'm praying to god that miss Samra will be able to help me! She's my guardian angel counselor! HAHAHA! I love her. but yeah other than that! I'm excited for tomorrow! Its hype day for MHM at Great America! and Kim Keli and Bubba are suppose to go as well! So yeah. (: pretty stoked for that. HAHAHA! Yeah thats enough for now. I'm going to write more later. URGHH! Chem tonight.

Lyrically lost in translation.

"Dead in the middle of Little Italy little did we know that we riddled some middleman who didn't do diddily"- Big Punisher

There isn't really a real explanation to why I feel so attached to this specific lyric. Out of all the lyrics I've heard, I can't really explain why I like this one so much! I think looking at it strictly from the perspective of a writer I like it so much simply because, you can feel the intensity of the rapper's words very vividly but its also presented in such a way that you can picture a little child skipping along the sidewalks singing this. Or maybe I am just delirious. Maybe it isn't that great of a lyric. Maybe...

Why?

I don't know why it is i feel this way for you. No that's not true! I do know why. It's because you are a genuinely caring person. And though you may act all "THUG" status I know who you really are. Maybe that's why it's so hard for me to let go? maybe I don't want to let go and hope that one day you'll feel the way that I feel for you. But you won't and I know that, so why let myself keep on getting hurt? Why let myself keep on believing that one day it will all just click for you and you'll figure it all out. But I'm afraid that when you do "figure it all out" I won't be apart of your plans. Idk but whatever it is that happens. I hope the best for you, because in the end all that really matters is that your happy. That's all I really care about. Your happiness.